Monday, February 3, 2014

Keeping it Real

I went back and forth on whether or not to write this post, and if to write it, how.

I'm sorry for going MIA last week. From blogging, instagram facebook and twitter and more.

You see, I was going through something personal. It was painful and sad, and quite frankly devastating. You know that feeling when you're really sad that you just cannot continue your routine, well that's where I was.

This time also made me question a lot of things in my life, including this blog of mine.

I felt I had two options:

To share this sad and difficult thing I was going through with all of you.
or
To pretend like everything was normal, rainbows and butterflies.

And that's when I started to question this whole blogging thing: whether I wanted to keep it up. I realized that the blogospehere world was setting us up for failure, setting up expectations that did not even exist. I realized that like seeing a super skinny model in a magazine was bad, this new trend of sharing everything, whether via a blog or a tweet or instagram photo, was bad too. Now not only are images photoshopped but our sense of life is filtered too.

Funny enough, there was an article out about this same phenomenon last week. I loved this article.

So, I didn't want you all to assume everything was rainbows and butterflies when it wasn't. So, instead I went radio silent. I spent the week with friends and family that mean the world to me, who've seen me at my best and at my worst and I discovered a little bit more about who I am and who I want to be.

I will say my world was turned upside down for a week or so, but it's right side up one again and I'm so thankful and happy for that.

And at the end of this all I came to a few, actually many, conclusions. I'm happy to report that I decided not to give up blogging because as much as I had my reservations, I realize how much I love doing this. I love writing and I love sharing my thoughts and life, and sending it all out into the great abyss internet.

I also reaffirmed to myself and to this blog that I'll be keeping it real and keeping it me.

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